It doesnt seem like it yet. I wonder when it’ll hit me.
I am just so amazed by the amount of love and congratulations I’ve recieved today. I havent felt so loved in a long time and I really appreciate everyone.
Life is pretty good right now and I can’t wait for an incredible summer and school year. :)
I distanced myself from someone because I was against him not going to church and being okay with drinking/partying, yet five months later, I’m doing things like that too. My church attendance has been somewhat scarce. I used to never skip a week, but then I just started to skip cause we have no youth pastor and got nothing from the american church, so I stopped (although that’s not really the case anymore). I haven’t drank (drunken??) alcohol but I’ve been wanting to. I’ve been to bars and smoked hookah, which is like nothing, but nonetheless a gateway for other things.
I’ve just grown so far apart from God. I don’t even pray anymore because I don’t feel like I deserve it. I don’t want to seem like a hypocrite asking for things and giving thanks while doing everything that’s against His word, you know? I want to have the best of both worlds, but I know that’s not possible. So I guess right now, I’ve chosen the world over God, and I don’t think I’m very happy. Idk, things have gotten better, but I have so much work to do…