i think the saddest people always try their hardest to make people happy
because they know what it’s like to feel absolutely worthless
and they don’t want anybody else to feel like that
(Source: circumcisions)
It doesnt seem like it yet. I wonder when it’ll hit me.
I am just so amazed by the amount of love and congratulations I’ve recieved today. I havent felt so loved in a long time and I really appreciate everyone.
Life is pretty good right now and I can’t wait for an incredible summer and school year. :)
I distanced myself from someone because I was against him not going to church and being okay with drinking/partying, yet five months later, I’m doing things like that too. My church attendance has been somewhat scarce. I used to never skip a week, but then I just started to skip cause we have no youth pastor and got nothing from the american church, so I stopped (although that’s not really the case anymore). I haven’t drank (drunken??) alcohol but I’ve been wanting to. I’ve been to bars and smoked hookah, which is like nothing, but nonetheless a gateway for other things.
I’ve just grown so far apart from God. I don’t even pray anymore because I don’t feel like I deserve it. I don’t want to seem like a hypocrite asking for things and giving thanks while doing everything that’s against His word, you know? I want to have the best of both worlds, but I know that’s not possible. So I guess right now, I’ve chosen the world over God, and I don’t think I’m very happy. Idk, things have gotten better, but I have so much work to do…
